She Wake up and Make-up

Broke, battered, and confused
feeling hurt and misused
make up Ain't gone make up
for the shit that you been through
if only that eye shadow
could shadow that hurt inside
or
mascara mask
low self-esteem with pride
future cover girl
just trying to blanket her world
while her tear drops
reveal her faulty foundation
run to the beauty supply
when you already got beauty in ample supply
chasing idealized perfection
in bleaching cream
cause people scared of the dark
what ever happened to
the blacker the berry
the sweeter the juice
I guess love for self
like a baby tooth knocked lose
soon to fall out of existence
if only life were as polished as your finger nails
as sweet as your lotion smells
and filled with loving contacts
so lucid you don't even need color contacts to see
don't hide the foul stench of misery

with fairy tail perfumes
that need reapplication
upon realization
that the mess is still there
no perm can straighten
the tangle web you weave
but some how you still believe
you can get up
put on your make up
and that should somehow make up
when in reality you just need to
wake up and see
you never woke up
you see
so stop blaming every man you see
cause he just going off what he see
he can't help that that’s false representation
of who you be
so why don't you let him see you
make up free

Sun Is Always Shining

If I give my son the present
he might give his son a future
a family full of winner
then why we living like losers
at the bottom of the barrel
till the cream rise to the top
I know we at the bottom
but son the presents all I got
my parents call me sun
cause they know that i would shine
so to my unborn seed
know you that little light of mine
I'm working trying to make it
hopefully that ease your mind
call me Mr caffeine
cause I'm always on the grind
in this world world full pampers
plenty people full of shit
and i know they got a lot
but they ain't bout shit
this is the present son
and this I am dealing with
and if I tell you bout it now
then you can bypass all of it
see I'm gone call you sun
cause i was sun the present
and I gotta make sure the sun shine in future

In Due Time

i knew it when i seen her for the first time

she wasn't feeling me i guess i fumbled with the first line

thinking to myself, man imma get her next time

only problem is i won't see her for a long time

now i'm wishing that i power just to rewind time

living in the past, just wasting even more time

focus on the money that im getting in the mean time

throw it all away just to kick it with her one time

time and time again i tried to tell her it's our time

sorry that i said fuck you that one time

time heals wounds and since that it's been a long time

plus me and you haven't spoke in a long time

and i just want to get back to the good times

but you telling me that you need your alone time

friend's telling me she'll come back in her own time

but long as she come back to me in due time

Ill be fine .

Story of November in September

I love him tho

Like a brother he was to me
As thick as malaises be
That’s just how our blood be

As far as coke bottles see
Still ain't into the future

Bro I took you for granted
Never thought that I would lose you

It seem like a illusion
Or reality eluding me

I didn't think that I
Would have to turn that we to me

And I can sit here and cry for a century
But those tears can't bring you back to me

But still I cry hoping it will bring me from misery
Looking at my bible seeking comfort from my mystery

This hard pill to swallow is what life
Has just given me

Braking down emotionally
To spare myself mentally

Pain and love both seem to attack my heart simultaneously
And memories of you seem to pop up instantaneously

Running from the truth just drowning in my lie
Trying to keep my face dry
While my heart cry

Time Soars and Pain flees

The sands of time is devoured by each days passing
We are not only promised death
But also uncertainty

He went to his eternal slumber
But I woke up that day

cuz that 24 hour span was the first time I open my eyes
To the fact that tomorrow really isn't promised

And as tears sprinted down my face
Not only in morn that I may never see his face
But that one day we will all be in his place
I felt trapped

Confined to this earthly form
Forced to preserve that which is already
Destine for destruction

I found comfort in the words of fallen
For they said the body is trapped
But the soul is free

From that I found strength to smile
cuz then I understood that in death he found freedom

Freedom from both death and uncertainty
No longer prisoner to this flesh bared cell

And as the pain set sail on the sea of my salt water tears
I took part in the celebration of his home going

A trip so many before him has taken
And so many after him must take

To a land where joy shall never end
May you fly away.

Death of the turn tables

With out response it cries to me
Hoping I can provide some sort of release

Stay with it

Instead of letting some one take up my lease

But I can't

See I took all of my love for rap
That was bottled up inside

Opened the window to my soul
And just poured outside

cuz not to many rappers
Thinking out side of the box

And wonder why they career
Belong be in a pine box

They only hit provoked
Young men to box

Now they last two fans
Locked in a iron bared box

What ever happens to the rappers?
With more flow then Niagara
And they lyrics went harder then Viagra

Ha

See right now I’m just aggravated

With rappers talking bout they ice
Knowing they exaggerated

Turn tables use to bring life to the party

Now the tables have turned
caz DJ’s won't give real music a turn

For the love or the love of

Use to dream of being rich
Now I’m drowning in cold sweats
From nightmares of being
Out on the cold streets

I can't sleep

Or maybe I can
And God just haven’t gave me permission to
That’s what I feel compelled
To keep thanking you

Cause I don't know exactly what I need
But I know that I’m in need of something
And I'm always in want but But
I don't deserve anything

But who really does
So I guess I’m in good company
Cause CEO's and hoes
Work for the same company

A neutral dollar bill
Now an accessory to murder
Killed a dreamer
and turned him to A chump change junky

No matter if you in a suit
Or ripped jeans begging for lose change
If you ain't doing what you love
Then you must change

You was innocent back then
Just doing it for the fun of it
But right now really it's pointless
And we all guilty so please remain Point less

Because if we cast stones
then i guess we all
Will be victims of hard times

Scared of the Dark

I think of you as my land
so what I can I do for my country

I'll go to war for you
I'll live and die for you

see they want to be citizens
so they can reap the benefits

but flee you first sign of hardship
but see I built a hard ship
to sail the ups and downs of life

so if catastrophe should strike
I know we'll make it through the night

just me and my pen
inscribing the legacy of me
to place in a lump of coal to
to find the diamond with in me

I poor my heart in you
while other rape you of your purity

In order to raise a monarchy
and place them selves paramount

while I will gladly be your slave
just to lay your foundation
and let you bring the world together
as one unified nation

See you the you the big city
and every one wants to be the bright light

but you only need light when it's to dark to see

and when the fame is the light
that will be the darkest day in poetry

Open your eyes

A tear for a nation blinded from segregation
With they own interpretation for the value of creation

I’m black is that the result of some skin discoloration Or am I just one of gods many beautiful creations

Shed the blood of the innocent
Guilty of being different

A man choose life or death
When he can't choose it for himself

Base his poor decisions on his self perceived wealth
See a problem with a race because it doesn't reflect self

See

If we were all one color and all believed in one thing
It would still be one person who would find one thing

And disrupt the balance of everything Just so he or she can sing I’m better
Understand

As long as we see simple difference
We will never see equality

All races stand together side by side
Do not follow me

Its okay your skin is different
Cause people all that I see

So the question is, what do you see?

Crossing the line

something make me feel so wrong
tho her man is on that drake
cuz he so far gone
If i tell her how i feel then I've done him wrong

so i'm here in the middle
just thinking up my strategy
but anyway i go
someone gone be mad me
and i don't want the problems
either way I'm causing pain

cause how can i lay clam
to land that bared his name
a dollar relationship
but she looking for some change

and me and her make cents
but to him that don't makes sense
and to start an altercation would be senseless

but any path I take can lead to hurt
cause what if we don't work
then I've thrown a friendship in the dirt
with no seeds of good faith
so I know that it won't grow

if you got a answer to this
please just let know

cuz something telling l me that
I should let it go
but if I did that
then I guess I'll never ever know
how we could go

all cuz I'm scared to let go
so use to usual
that his refusal to call me bro
is enough to make me say no

In realty i just don't know

Cosmos

Soul searching to find me
But it’s easier to find Waldo
In a room full of candy canes

I can't be of this world
cuz my passion to be great is outstanding

I remember out standing in the rain
Waiting on a glimpse of sun shine

Because I know if you don't have rain
The sun can't make the grass grow

I got a couple homies who like the grass that you blow
But thats only cause they seen lightning before

Me, yeah i seen it too but trees don't produce the Edgar Allen last name to make paper burn

And my trees are words that grow within
Ran out of room so i have let it flow thought my fountain pen

People asking were in the world does my mind be
And that’s the reason they'll never define me
I’m out of this world

And I don't intend to return
Leave that for your superman
Tho the game kryptonite

They said think out side the box but boxes is for squares
I’m well-rounded so I’m thinking out the atom-sphere

And I don't need back stabbers in my atmosphere and I breath art not air so they can't live out here

all ways on the fence

Either you over qualified are you or you under rated
this is just the story of a guy who may not make it

running for the finish line but getting over lapped
and feeling trapped, cuz he tired of being in last place

the money to low and the hope is out the window
and his love for life might be the next thing to go

he praying for a break but they keep breaking his heart
and his pride so he just throw all his dreams the side

they tell that him talented but always missing something
and if you missing that then that talent means nothing

He always on the fence he never in the clear
living with the fear that he might get stuck right here

they tell the him keep his head up
only so he can see everybody rise while he fall

and he sick and tired ya'll
oh he sick and tired ya'll .

Price of Fame

For fame and a name she'll sacrifice anything,
from her education to her health situation.

Got a group of chicks and they all participating.
Singing on a pipe so they can sing up on a mic

Or black male brother cuz she kicked for a night
Now she asking for a ransom just to keep it from the light

In front of the red light of the camera scene
Got more tricks then pinky if it come to getting seen

In the school of fame she wants her freshmen 15
Been dreaming about this ever since she was 16

17 sport players, way before 18
No success now she trying to hit the music scene

But she on 19 and it the same dang thing
When she 20 guess she gone move on to acting

And hopefully, they be acting right
And not just in it for the action right

But as for tonight she wants some love in the studio
Poked holes in his glove so she can catch him slipping up

Roles,and Questions

She was a rider.

Too bad he didn't he didn't have a car to take her in,
and walking was something she had to take in.

He's a provider.

Of a one room apartment not worth living in
But that's all he could afford with his dividends.

They were the chosen

By god ordained, to supply the world with my brain
and the brains of my siblings

We were the children.

Bread to better than ancestor
With a fighting chance is what god blessed us.

This was the life.

Infected with hard times and poverty
You have to be strong to make it though obviously

In this day and time,

I'm proud to report that we doing fine
And I’m trying to find me a piece of mine

This is the struggle.

To shine bright when everybody got bright idea
And people that made it won't even throw a rope down here.

This is the question.

When I get where I’m going
Will I forget where I came?

Or make it my foundation while I’m out changing the nation.

Lifes Gamble

I was raised by a king and queen to be the ace in the hole.
Then blackjack when the cards unfold.

Is this my lucky day?
Honestly I’ll never know.

But, if you never take a chance,
than what are you living for?

It's like a game of dice,
when I walk out the front door.

Cause I never ever know
what the lord has in store.

Is heart break around the corner,
down the street from fame?

Will I see my name in lights
Or bring my family name to shame.

Mine as well just pull the leaver
Gone head and get in the game.

Would have rather lived and died.
Then never lived and died.

Cause it's the only way to win,
but not the only way to lose.